The Masterpiece Malaise
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Mason D.R., a museum education coordinator I know who spends his days navigating the hallowed halls of high art, once told me that the most common expression he sees on visitors’ faces isn’t wonder-it’s guilt. He describes people standing in front of a massive, multi-million dollar canvas, squinting at the brushwork, looking desperately for the epiphany they were promised by the guidebook. They feel like they’re failing the art if they don’t feel the lightning strike. Mason calls it ‘The Masterpiece Malaise.’
– Mason D.R., Art Educator
They feel like they’re failing the art if they don’t feel the lightning strike. We’ve brought that same malaise into our living rooms, sitting in the dark with a dual-sense controller, waiting for a feeling that refuses to come because we’ve already decided it’s a requirement. This canonization of entertainment is a relatively new poison for the medium. For decades, games were just toys, or at best, niche hobbies. There was no ‘required reading’ because the library was still being built. But now, with forty-five years of history behind us, we have a solidified list of ‘The Greats.’ This creates a psychological backlog that functions more like a debt than a hobby. When I look at my library of 525 games, I don’t see a playground; I see a list of chores I’ve paid for.
I see the 2015 Game of the Year that I haven’t touched, and it looks back at me with a silent, digital reproach.
Gravitating Towards Lightness
I find myself gravitating toward the mindless, the ‘unimportant,’ the games that don’t demand I acknowledge their genius. I’ll spend 85 hours in a mindless survival loop or a chaotic shooter where nothing matters, and I’ll feel a lightness that the ‘Masterpieces’ simply cannot provide. Why? Because there is no expectation. No one is going to ask me my deep philosophical take on a game about a goose stealing keys. But if I don’t finish the latest 205-million-dollar cinematic masterpiece, I’m missing the ‘moment.’ I’m outside the circle. We’ve turned gaming into a form of social capital, and like all capital, it’s exhausting to manage.
We are not always in a state to receive greatness. Sometimes, we are just tired. Sometimes, our necks hurt because we cracked them too hard, and we don’t have the emotional bandwidth to process a 55-hour meditation on grief and fatherhood. When we force ourselves into these experiences, we develop a resentment toward the very things we are supposed to love.
– Realization
I remember Mason D.R. telling me about a time he found a child sitting on the floor of the museum, completely ignoring the ‘important’ sculpture behind him, instead fascinated by the way the afternoon light hit the brass floor vent. The child was having a genuine aesthetic experience, unmediated by the ‘should.’ He wasn’t performing. He was just being. That is what I want back in my hobby. I want to find the brass floor vents of the gaming world.
Finding the Brass Vents
I want to stumble upon something because it speaks to me in that specific, quiet moment, not because it has a 95 on a review aggregator.
The Relentless Cycle
The industry doesn’t help. The marketing cycles are designed to make every release feel like a historical event. If you aren’t there on Day 5, you’re already behind. The spoilers will find you, the memes will pass you by, and the ‘discourse’ will move on to the next shiny object. It’s a relentless conveyor belt of importance. I’ve found that the only way to survive it is to actively embrace the ‘unimportant.’ I’ve started intentionally ignoring the big releases for months, sometimes years, until the noise dies down. I want to find them when they are just games again, stripped of their ‘must-play’ armor.
Hype Cycle Completion (Delayed Strategy)
30% (Intentionally)
It’s a strange contradiction to love a medium so much that you have to protect yourself from its greatest hits. I once spent $55 on a collector’s edition of a game I knew I wouldn’t play for at least a year, just because I felt I needed to ‘own’ the experience. It sat on my shelf, a literal box of guilt, until I eventually gave it away. I realized that owning the artifact isn’t the same as having the experience, and the experience cannot be forced. It’s like trying to fall in love on command.
Garden vs. Archive
We need to stop treating our libraries like archives that need to be completed and start treating them like gardens that need to be wandered. A garden isn’t a list of tasks; it’s a space where you go to see what is blooming. If the roses are the ‘Masterpiece,’ but today I only have the energy for the weeds, then the weeds are what I should be looking at. There is a profound freedom in admitting that you don’t care about the most important game of the year.
The Archive
Debt
List to be completed
VS
The Garden
Joy
Space to wander
I recently looked into some community-led archival projects, like the work being done over at ems89, and it reminded me that the history of this medium is vast and weird and full of things that were never meant to be ‘important.’ There is a joy in the obscure, the failed experiments, and the personal favorites that never won an award. These are the games that belong to us, not to the canon.
The Small Joys Found Off-Canon
🦆
The Goose
No Deep Meaning
🏠
The Base Build
Pure Loop
✨
The Glitch
Unexpected Beauty
Meeting Greatness as a Friend
My neck still hurts. It’s a sharp reminder that I’m pushing myself too hard, even in my relaxation. I look at the ‘Play’ button again. The ‘Masterpiece’ is still there, waiting. It will still be there in 5 months, or 5 years. The ‘Should’ is a ghost, and I’m tired of being haunted. I think I’ll go play something that no one will ever write a dissertation on. I’ll go play something that makes me laugh, or something that just feels good to move around in. I’ll leave the greatness for another day, when I’m ready to meet it as a friend, not as a judge.
The canon is a map, but the map is not the territory.
The bravery is in choosing your own path, even if it’s the unpaved one.
There is a specific kind of bravery in being ‘uninformed’ about the things everyone else is shouting about. It requires a rejection of the fear of missing out, replaced by a commitment to the joy of finding. When I finally do get around to playing that 105-hour epic, I want it to be because I’m hungry for it, not because I’m afraid of being left behind. We’ve turned our consoles into workstations where we clock in to perform ‘leisure.’
The weight of the unplayed masterpiece is only as heavy as the importance we give it. If we strip away the prestige, it’s just code. If we strip away the ‘should,’ it’s just a game. And games are meant to be played, not worshipped. I think I’m going to go lie down and put a heat pack on my neck. Maybe tomorrow, I’ll find something small and strange to love. Maybe I won’t play anything at all. Both options feel infinitely better than the performance of appreciation. The canon can wait. I’m going to go be human for a while, in all my uncultured, aching, and wonderfully bored glory.